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Set
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Spell:
Choosing
a Lived Life
On chilly days Grandpa
used to tell folks who visited the country store in Buckhorn
community in Lee County to pull up a chair or find a "drank"
crate and set a spell by the old potbellied stove. Last
year I had what the fellers at the store would have called
a rip 'em up, tear 'em up wreck. I hydroplaned in a frog-strangling
rain storm, and my car flipped like Mama used to toss a
flap jack. Passersby and even the Revenuer -- the Highway
Patrolman -- said it was a wonder I crawled out in one piece.
I was whisked away by two sweet gals, Nicki and Angie, who
have big ole country hearts and looked after a neighbor
in distress even if it meant they missed their Sunday dinner
at the in-laws.
For days I applied
various remedies to my cuts and bruises and swollen body
parts and laid on my sofa with a heating pad and contemplated
my life. When I lost control of my car it symbolized something
much deeper -- I have lost control of my life. The day before
I had gotten up at 5 a.m. and driven to book promotions
in High Point and Winston-Salem and went to bed at 3 a.m.
that night. The next morning I was hightailing it to a book-signing
at a holiday open house when Fate intervened.
Before the wreck
I'd been running around like a dog chasing its tail... just
too busy with "busy-ness." I had been gobbling
down MoonPies and swilling down too many "dranks"
to keep me alert on 12-hour work days and not taking the
time to pull up a chair at Mama's table often even though
I had moved only a few miles from Daddy's pecan tree in
the backyard. I might as well be seven states from the family
farm and the parents I want to enjoy and nurture like Grandpa
did that pecan sapling many years ago.
Last year I courted
Death and after the life-changing wreck I vowed to avoid
this untimely willing suitor. I choose this sweetheart named
Life and now understand that there is more to loving this
beau than racing around like a 1950's stock car champion.
This rooster-crowing wake-up call reminded me that every
moment must be cherished and not be taken for granted. In
my manic mood to sell as many books as possible I kept pushing
myself until a date with Destiny stopped me on my path to
Insanity. Pains in my body and weeks of physical therapy
forced me to stay home more and to learn an unforgettable
lesson: take time for living.
Even Grandpa and
the folks at the country store knew when to take breaks
and set a spell. Back then they lived in tune with the seasons
of the field, but in today's complex world of non-stop information
overload, it is hard to honor the seasons of the heart that
urge us to regroup and rejoice. This month the calendar
speaks of rebirth, renewal and rededication to making our
lives a celebration of love and joy. The New Year calls
out for us to be true to ourselves, our families and our
communities.
Dawna Markova wrote
a poem "I Will Not Die an Unlived Life" in response
to her father's death and later a book by the same title.
Here is the poem:
I will not die an
unlived life.
I will not live in fear
of falling or catching fire.
I choose to inhabit my days,
to allow my living to open me,
to make me less afraid,
more accessible;
to loosen my heart
until it becomes a wing,
a torch, a promise.
I choose to risk my significance,
to live so that which came to me as seed
goes to the next as blossom,
and that which came to me as blossom, goes on as fruit.
In the book Markova
says her motto is LIVE:
L stands for the question, "What do I love?"
I represents "What are my inner gifts and talents?"
V refers to "What do I value?"
E relates to "What are the environments that bring
out the best in me?"
This New Year I know
in my heart of hearts there is one resolution I can commit
to completely with my body, mind and spirit: "I will
not settle for an unlived life but live abundantly with
purpose and passion." In 2004 I choose a life rich
with health, happiness, and harmony, including nutritious
foods, energizing exercise, loving relationships, and fulfilling
work. I will not die until I have experienced life to the
fullest! Will you join me on this journey?